Yesterday I was feeling blue because I was vacuuming and the vacuum cleaner kept shutting itself off. I'll check the filters, but it might just be getting to the end of its useful life. And my son needs to pay his entrance fees for the big music festival coming up. And we need new sheets. And the kids' socks have all fallen apart at the same time....
What's the use of scrimping and saving if it just means I have to use that money to buy more things? Doesn't that defeat the whole point of the exercise?
On the bright side, today I get to go try something completely new - shooting a bow and arrow.
I bought my son a recurve bow for Christmas and today we are going to our town's archery club to learn to use it. I bought him a target, thinking he could just shoot it in the backyard but my husband vetoed that idea. When the weather gets nicer I'll start taking him out to the bush - there are several spots I know we can go where no one's around to accidently hit.
I've wanted to learn to shoot a bow and arrow all my life, but today I feel strangely blank about it all. Does this ever happen to you? It's like I'm afraid now that this dream is coming true it won't be as fun as I thought it would be. Or I won't be good enough at it - something like that. Fear of success, you could call it.
I'm determined to buck that fear this year because it really gets in the way of having a good time.
Anyway, I'll bring the camera and take some pics. Now I'm getting excited about it. Must have just been a touch of existential angst there....